Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Traffic

Driving, slap me

This is how I feel

Conjested traffic stuck between christian's and catholic's

Alike is nobody,

we share alike nothing

except these single file line's

we are stuck through

Made to converse silently

but with madness

Merging into closed zipper's

Panick attack, get me out of here

Driving, slap me

this is how I feel

In a herd, where i am nobody

Stop signs, traffic signals

There controling me

It's maddness out here

Alone with nobody

cigarettse and coffee

chain smoking

Break lights

Blinkers

No ending


Sunday, December 4, 2011

Digital music

Equalizer modulator
With knob's to twist and retard limits
Sequenced loops and samples
Ambient reverb programed
Over synthesizer's layered melodies
Ribbon pad, pitch high ratio,
Falling effect's,
Beat's per minute
Scribble-scrabble,
Cable's across the board
Digitized mania,
Relax's everything in mind

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Alienated

Past time mock's my void,

Hole's inside of hole's

Rubbing together,

Creating blister's

Bleeding gums,

Attribute sanitation,

Hygiene,

Lower education,

Silenced.

Nowhere is anywhere

When a million people

Walk your city-town

You are nobody

A grain of salt or sugar

Transparent alien

Grabbing at thing's

Running a fever this time around

Scratching at yourself

Center latitude
In discrete
Standing straight
Wide open
Hallucinations
Junctions of paths
Stand and wait
Let go, and turn around
Decision making
Not yet made, obsolete
Headquarter's to barricade
Self locked in a room
To hyper ventilate
Straight forward, a mistake
Turned around like alway's
When to change?
Hallucination's far too wrong
For that death in the family
Creature's stir all over the body
Hit hard in you belly
Fasten yourself to the wall
Fatigues, war boot's, and army suit
Shooter gun on the rack
With many others'
Hard to pick
decision making not a thing
inny minny miny moe
Sharp shooter ready to go
End is near
Squad get ready
For there is something in the air

Day next
wake up
hallucinations gone
burn the boot's
Smell the leather
Fatigue root's change the scene









Friday, December 2, 2011

Abandon lonliness

Chance fact

Happen's less often

And when it does

Take that chance

Never second guessing

A million thing's pass your way

A million time's a day

And you don't speak

Forgo the intention

Of heart's willing's

to believe

Something surfaces

Happen's at last

Instinct to run

But chance never happen's

Go at it, arm's up

like out the womb

Fear guessing

The understanding

Of attachment

May just happen

Because chance never happen's

Not like this

Degree's of likeliness

Welcoming

no running

No pondering

that black face in the mirror

after such a poke in the eye

when staring at you

Forever unknowing

It's not a lie

It was inevitable

Why was there fright

in the very beginning

Change yourself,

you are not alone anymore

Be fare ground,

it's not all about yourself anymore

Because chance never happen's

not like this,

an open heart

felt again

Time to let some affection in

Time enough to abandon

detachment, imune loneliness

Thursday, December 1, 2011

sunshine

The sun came crashing in,

onto the floor,

and when I look at you in the moment,

I want more.

Past certain corner's,

everything blast's yellow,

fastened to the ground.

The sun make's it's sound.

Gentile heat strike's on our face,

like you do, when I'm all astray.

Carry on we shut our eye's,

and feel the the yellow orange,

inside our mind's,

no need to show open heart's,

the sun glare clear's our tear's

and tear's us apart,

in wanting our shadow's

to be fixed upon,

we follow them discretely.

Path our way through the distance

turn's dark, and darker still,

pale first hue, then deep across the hill,

hand in hand silenced strikes.

No need for words,

It's a wonderful evening,

shallow breath, whisk's of clouds,

coat's, and scarf's, no umbrella,

no sprinkle, no rain.

No rush, no muck, no havoc.


Shadow's lurking electricity; song



Energy give's off shadow's you can not see

Pleasure is infonaut

Stagnetic pulsing

Shadow's lurking when we kiss


Grey and pink

Static electricity

hovering

Knee's bent

An answer, a prayer,

Is this happening,

because chance never happen's,

not like this.

Any more reason electricity exists.

Shadows lurking me home.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

up waiting for the sun
up waiting for a sore pinched nerve to heal
up all nite
desperate
depending on self
to finish a god damn thing at last

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Monday's storm song

Dry outlandish-scape horizon turn foggy
Wash a hailstorm inwards downpour
Sporadic triangular hillside's,
Vernacular coastline
Set astray in a leather jacket
Turmoil combust's
Spot's of turquoise
Earth round-about
Flat on the ground
Silkscreen black pavement wet rain-set
Curvature align the straight arrow street sign
Growing pole's and electrical wire's
Muck on the ground grout
Turn over, more over.
Ever after, streak sky set's
Black with white speck's
After the storm

Ocean Beach, San Fransisco


Titled titled untitled wave;
Ashore dependent boundaries
Broken tyrant pondering's
Descending, closure past pardon reflection's
A new wave
A bridge afar
No post standing's
A new wave
Fresh air at if only
At if now it is lonely
A new wave
Crashing wave
Untitled wave
Anew wave
Sun shore
Where we wore
Our untitled heart's
We lay
A new wave
Undone everything
Everything undone
A new wave
Post pardon discussion
Of what's to become
Of this/that/you/me
Distance tyrant refuge
wait un-if unto
Not knowing
Wave's settle
Glandular vocal's
Listen
We listen
Broken tyrant pondering's,
Closure past pardon reflection's
A new wave
Titled untitled
Flashing sun shore
Integrated
None to finish the end
Unfinished beginning
A new wave
Ashore; new broken boundaries
Unsettled, dry sand
Packed, into then sand castles
Busted, breached, higher peak
A new wave
Undone everything
Everything undone
A new wave
Post pardon discussion
Of what's to become
Of this/that/you/me
Distance tyrant refuge
wait un-if unto
Not knowing
Wave's settle
Glandular vocal's
Listen
We listen
To A new wave










Saturday, November 26, 2011

Light is light

Past falling breeze
Into winter ease
Changing up thought's
Of old tragedies
Into new reality

Simple you see,
With you near
Nearer now, even so
A captured moment
Put's me out

Loose and open
Behavioral learnings
You the remedy
Of night's less tragic
Of morning's more stigmatic

And ongoing
Free to release
Portion's of life
Existed in the dark
Light is light,
Forevermore



Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Music=the existing us

Simultaneously, pitter-patter, we splatter the same earth
And not knowing anything, that us two exist, is a wonderful petty mess
Ton's of quiet in between the miles,
Where two static electricity's are a miss
But bended though, they will get
When tapping into the same link
And button-pushing, heart-thinking, fast-forward, slow-motion-
The mile's quietness cease to exist
Bent-static, pitch-tork, fractal-bit's, came together
And tuned in
Beat-and-beat-and-beat after beat
Realization:
If it wasn't for music
Non of this would exist

My Edit of Scene's from Twin Peak's Movie

Twin Peaks Fire Walk With Me; Edit name: Thing's get stranger every day

freeing need

Atomic inferno, hyacinth color burst out, screaming stream, freeing need, and letting go.
Desire's are, for this, for this inferno-let-go, to bring out a suspended life form, an elongated gate way, of knowledge, terminate gesture's, which form the line around me.

Significance

I was in a state
But I begin to relate
To a thousand noises
of peculiar determinations
Loaded internally
In mind
hindsight mortality
Significant dreams
None of shame
Or far from reality

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

pigion's

stumble feet tripping, cracking ankes
breaking toes
lost in the shadows
pigions mutilated
electrocuted wired poking devices
no love
scrap for crumbs
____________________________

I am a giant
Looking up at me
No fear
They walk towards me
I feed them my potatoe chips
sometimes i see them dead
on the curbs from busses
______________________________

Pitch noise


the pitch everlasting


goes high bright


and low dark


everlasting pitch noise


switch a switch


and static


beats siren notes


i care because you do


you care because i do


pitch noise everlasting


shades of bright and dark


in the memory gland


like your hands

November into December 2011


So, well, here the year comes to an end


Right now the leave's are changing, and falling


And start flooding the gutter's and drain's


For me, the end is the beginning


Of anew


Like the trees shedding

,

See them speading their seeds


Not asking for anything


Accepting everything


As I've learned to do


By watching

,

Gathering


Wanting

Words you speak so clear through my dyeing ear

So sharp I hear, peircing down my throat and heart

what is near/ what is short?

Far beneath is out and open for you to see

It'sme this time around,

I'm comeing around again,

And anew

Out of the blue

And fantastic so,

You blew up my wall,

And up I went,

You caught me so perfect

And it's different

Two pair's of noise collecting static

Thrown around, to stand still

Against open door's

I'm following through

Wide open eyes

Set transfixed

Under beautiful black eyebrows

Set time at last

It is at last

Time




haunts together at once


The street's linger a decisive attitude,
Set you straight in a mood,linger's on,
It's nite, and dry. Cold.
Hand's in your pocket's
Trenching through your path
A regular amount traveled
The same old route
Diffierent attitude
Stuck this way for now,
And you can't tell how it goes,
How you feel, it's haunting
That's all you know.

Destination traveled
Afar, not more than usual
the same old route
the same old avenues, blocks,
Street lamps, stop lites, and signs.
But never the same people,
But similar one way or another.
different faces, but same old style.

Destination recieved
You feel the same haunt
So it's time to drink.
Drink it off, as much as you can,
and you lose the haunt.
sky looping attitude,
here, the same face's
Paticularily in the corner
What's going on?
you greet them.

After a double whiskey free on the house,
"What's up , my friend's"
you say,
You feel lucky, the haunt is gone
You feel free,
to get tanked tonite,
forget everything.
But maybe recap your feelings.
And simularities, in everybody.
"What's going on?"
"How did we meet?"
Inevitable, tonite
they all had a haunt
together at once.

Friday, November 18, 2011

november into december- 2011

Well it's been hell of a year, I can not say it went by fast, or slow by
that matter, it's been weird. All thing's of every kind were there. Different
people, opposites from one another, man after man, thing's I put myself through,
to hurt myself and teach me a lesson, which paid off in the end. A trip to the mental
hospital, a first for me, and finally a regular cocktail of prescription's, no more this or
that trial and error. Mental breakdowns, and manic spells, to depression and wellness,
swirls of moods, now November into December, a new life is beginning I can say, which in December never happens. A hope, and feeling that i may belong on this earth, for reason's I am well appreciated for thing's I have done in the past, and not be shun for. A comfort in love I have not felt for ever. The end is near, for this year. Day by day, i will still take it, but not afraid my future being lonely anymore, as there has been found a noticeably different fellow here for me on earth. Inspiration hit's the ceiling for now, and thing's get stranger everyday.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

The natural feeling of painting


She paints to see inside herself. She can't deny she's dark inside, but too many colors out the outside world. Deep. Too deep they hit her hard. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> She paints to see inside herself. She gets it out stroke by stroke. Mixture by mix. If any pain, it can be fixed. She gets a dirty mess she loves. Gets deep into it. Her hand's camouflaged in the landscape sun. Her head clears up, brush down and up the panel down and up the panel. Up. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> She paints to see inside herself. She is dark on the inside, dark on the outside, but color comes out. She sees too many colors. Her mind lets it bleed. Gets it all out. Gets it all out. let it bleed.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Anew

Anew

I can’t tell who’s cast this spell on me

It’s wicked touching me

Places go along with my footsteps

The corners I turn

With my eyes closed set

Benches I’ve cried and sat at

All the books I’ve read

And denied your face at

It’s time I know

I’m changing into anew

Thing’s I’ve said

Pacing back and forth my backyard

With that spell casted behind my back

Into a block of ice

Statue

It’s time I know

I’m changing into anew