
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
god is a metephor
for a burning fire star,
perched, distinctly miles perfect,
to make us all human,
to make everything exist.
even thing's in pitch black live,
For history and the future are fact's,
and when and the sun burn's out,
trillions, billion's of year's from now,
we will all be dead,
but from science,
not the apocalypse.
And still people pray and their knee's,
on the non existent man,
read the "book",
for example's of why we live.
and why?
God is a metaphor
for a burning star
While all the while we reproduce,
going far back to our ancestors,
and mother's, and father's,
who are real,
'the one's'
who creating us alive.
Not a non existent man
they say,
died for our sin's.
You know,
we go no where after we're dead.
And it's funny to think,
people in-take stories
of jesus christ,
and why?
What a waste of time
and mess of war it has given,
praying with moments,
learning what is wrong
while we could be moving on,
for we will get no where,
if we keep it moving on like this.
God is a metaphor.
Move on from false hope,
look at history,
the real fact's
are there to prove
that a meteor crash
is why we are here,
and that big burning star,
way up there,
is holding us together,
and is which and why
we are able to breathe,
and feel gravity.
think, love, bring back memories,
create, and drink coffee,
we owe it to ourselves.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Why I write songs; Bio
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
The traveling loner
Blury static fog
Bended hexagontal zig-zagging sharp edged finger's bare branch's
Barely lit over there across the way
Bended
Never seen it before
Sereal nostalgia
A-new de'ja'vue
Hiccup state
With every drag intake
Smoke is breath
Cold is inbetween breath's
Static thicken's
Sharp edge's vanish
Moon light only there to offer
Traveling loner
How to be in motion
One day at a time
Take the moment
Stride by stride
Traveling loner
You are real
And walking
Straight on through
This city of mine
Peeling art
Peeling at art
Pieces of texture
That's what I am doing
Day after day
While not painting
I go along with it
unintentionally saddened
by my madness
Unholy whole to the progression
Empowered by heart-wrenching stigmata's
Tearing layer after layer
Shedding tear's of anger
Tossed, swiveled by liquor
Knife slashing canvas art
With lust, and passion
For I haven't gone anywhere forward
The past shed's light of wanting so much more
Time lean's against time
Toward some kind of future
Bleeding knuckles
Texture after texture
Peeling off the layer's
I am un-in control
Painter's block
No patient's
No thought's
Writing
I can't stop writing
I can't stop notating,
Archiving
Word's are so pleasurable
Right now in these hour's
Walk away I cannot do
For I will not get along
With anybody, not even you
Stop me, I dare you
Thing's should be more important
But stuck here , stuck
To a piece of paper
Dotting this. dotting that
All for play, all for pleasure
Stuck in my world,
So far from others'
Painful to see a woman crying
Being pulled away ink pen and note pad
So let me be, let me be
Or something , someone else will become of me
And i will lose my soul
Be introverted, un-fun,
Crying in panic
Give me writing for the gushing of word's
The only thing that keeps me mentally stable
But fuck, there is a time,
And shit, I've got to get going
So I must start learning
To walk away
From my writing's
The present is the future
The past is getting old
The future stand's
and show's with the step
one taken before the other
At each second forward
Flourish
Particular moments
are at time still
Stop's
as you enjoy yourself
There is no such thing as time travel
Step by step
Closer as you get
Away from a non existent
present
Manic depression
Fractal images,
edges,
broken bit by bit,
in the dark,
black deep atmospher of the mind.
With white line's so thin.
Turning tricks,
again, and again,
in square circles.
And triangles,
mathematical form's.
In neon,
primary color's.
Static,
fast pace movement.
That's how I feel,
when in state of mood,
short tempered,
anxious,
reverberated,
refliecting in square circles,
bending,
and braking,
sticking back together,
un ending,
or so it feel's.
Like no release.
But when there is,
I am stagnet,
an empty shell
of a person,
wiped out from terror,
a traumatic event.
The release was not satisfactory,
because I had no control,
I didn't do it,
I can not say,
THat I did that.
There is no prize at the end.
And it is lonely,
and confusing.
Monday, December 19, 2011
a new aspect the song;listen here
Don't let go/Anew aspect, lyrics
A new aspect given,
An effect, a result carried out
Equal outcome's, winter re-asure's
Everything is affectionate
Let me put my arm's around you
Let's make up our own word's no one know's
And talk in our own tongue
And gather up the thing's up to come
Nothing is better than us,
In this given moment,
While we dare to reach for something sweet
we've been missing our entire live's
A perfect touch,
Don't let go,
I will hold on,
Forever
BUll frog's
I plunge out into an open wide depth of dry
where an ocean came and went
no heat, no cold, no feeling
stagnate
cracks and bullfrog's
no mirage tricking me thirsty
for no sun up
and no moon
it is that time of month
it is awful weather
with no atmosphere
fallen trees abroad
like homes suburban
in rows perfect inch's apart
hollow to bare a body in
where the dry creatures squat
and do their drugs
getting drunk
without a care in the world
I am an outcast
tall and monster
far away abroad my city
punched out a hole puncher
from the last poem i added
into my three ring binder
archived
what to come
or become
of this now
i'm that
an empty shell of no cardboard
lined with no canvas
this time around
crinkle me up
in two hands
put me in the trash can
the only hope out of here
because i have no ink pen
just memories
of non existent places
i once dreamt of
chasing bullfrog's
through the dry empty ocean land
childhood ongoing
ongoing forever alway's
in crack's and seam's
in old mud
of evolution
Departure
Sunday, December 18, 2011
3300 club; bar mumbo jumbo napkin scrible
story #1:
Partial focus
Onto immediate straight on forward the sidewalk
Blurry neon red/yellow in the window's ahead, beer advertisement's
No eye glasses
Broken from the drunken night before hand
When out of step
From one of a thousand unlucky stumbles
Failed from the last drink
which never should had of been sipped
tolerance shook-en
Dumb fuck
Blind as a bat
Story #2:
Fact or fake
Oblivion concentrate
Offensive images
One in another
Collage mirror manner
Pornography all over
Tippy-top glued
layer after layer
onto board topped off
nipple's after nipple's
Split into pieces
Broken bit to bit
Rip by rip
onto board into collage of pornography
Glue peeling off of finger's
Palm rubbing back and forth the board obsessively
There will become an ending
yes, trick it/and or one day it will get boring
For sure, for sure
ritualistic reality
spotted broken pornography
Fact or fake
On going old age
Mirror manner
Images of pornography
Thursday, December 8, 2011
something simple is not simple
something simple is not simple
take things away
they are gone forever
not the same
something simple
is not simple
anymore
complicated
walking out the door
never to be seen
so simple it was before
when near it was
not so simple
now
try harder next year
to keep thing's close
don't let them go
keep thing's near
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
mystic heart failure
There was heart failure
But it put life back together
In way's of wonder
Mistic congratulations,
Cheers, life came back around
Indifferent than any other
Heart is parchment paper
Written on with love poems
Beyond the brain sanctity
No more dyeing
It's to carry on again
Like no other
Haunting old stomping grounds'
A child again
Heart failure
The best wonder
Of mystic wonder's
That hasn't happen in years
too many people
parallel adjoined,
they have two standing leg's
against the foreground and beyond
100 pairs of parallel people
up all standing
face's close
yelling about talking
Traffic
Driving, slap me
This is how I feel
Conjested traffic stuck between christian's and catholic's
Alike is nobody,
we share alike nothing
except these single file line's
we are stuck through
Made to converse silently
but with madness
Merging into closed zipper's
Panick attack, get me out of here
Driving, slap me
this is how I feel
In a herd, where i am nobody
Stop signs, traffic signals
There controling me
It's maddness out here
Alone with nobody
cigarettse and coffee
chain smoking
Break lights
Blinkers
No ending
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Digital music
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Alienated
Past time mock's my void,
Hole's inside of hole's
Rubbing together,
Creating blister's
Bleeding gums,
Attribute sanitation,
Hygiene,
Lower education,
Silenced.
Nowhere is anywhere
When a million people
Walk your city-town
You are nobody
A grain of salt or sugar
Transparent alien
Grabbing at thing's
Running a fever this time around
Scratching at yourself
Friday, December 2, 2011
Abandon lonliness
Chance fact
Happen's less often
And when it does
Take that chance
Never second guessing
A million thing's pass your way
A million time's a day
And you don't speak
Forgo the intention
Of heart's willing's
to believe
Something surfaces
Happen's at last
Instinct to run
But chance never happen's
Go at it, arm's up
like out the womb
Fear guessing
The understanding
Of attachment
May just happen
Because chance never happen's
Not like this
Degree's of likeliness
Welcoming
no running
No pondering
that black face in the mirror
after such a poke in the eye
when staring at you
Forever unknowing
It's not a lie
It was inevitable
Why was there fright
in the very beginning
Change yourself,
you are not alone anymore
Be fare ground,
it's not all about yourself anymore
Because chance never happen's
not like this,
an open heart
felt again
Time to let some affection in
Time enough to abandon
detachment, imune loneliness
Thursday, December 1, 2011
sunshine
The sun came crashing in,
onto the floor,
and when I look at you in the moment,
I want more.
Past certain corner's,
everything blast's yellow,
fastened to the ground.
The sun make's it's sound.
Gentile heat strike's on our face,
like you do, when I'm all astray.
Carry on we shut our eye's,
and feel the the yellow orange,
inside our mind's,
no need to show open heart's,
the sun glare clear's our tear's
and tear's us apart,
in wanting our shadow's
to be fixed upon,
we follow them discretely.
Path our way through the distance
turn's dark, and darker still,
pale first hue, then deep across the hill,
hand in hand silenced strikes.
No need for words,
It's a wonderful evening,
shallow breath, whisk's of clouds,
coat's, and scarf's, no umbrella,
no sprinkle, no rain.
No rush, no muck, no havoc.
Shadow's lurking electricity; song
Static electricity
hovering
Knee's bent
An answer, a prayer,
Is this happening,
because chance never happen's,
not like this.
Any more reason electricity exists.
Shadows lurking me home.